Michelle Hartle you're breaking my heart

You're full name is Michelle Lynn Hartle. You were born on November 13, 1984. You're parents names are Bob and Carol. You're an only child. You're first pets were Prince and Tuffy. You saw snow for the first time when you were four months old. You've lived in the same house your whole live. You're mom was the first person to talk to my parents. You were the first person to talk to me...even if you did think I was a boy and I was playing with a truck. You're cousin hated me. I hated her. You're first boyfriend was Brian Gillingham. Do you remember that night we went and met Katherine? Do you remember Annie? Man she was a booger. What about Luke and Zack? Or when we played with fireworks? How about that time I moved? Or that time I came back? How about that time you got engaged and didn't tell me. Man that hurt.



Anyway. I don't usually get like that. You know you're grown up when someone you really know gets engaged. Not like "Oh yeah...someone you went to high school with is engaged...got married had a baby..." and when you go to a school with 641 people it's bound to happen after two years. But it really hits you when it's someone you've known since you were four years old and even if you aren't close to you've shared some ups and downs with. And they know that too. I mean, wow. I would have figured she would have been the first of the three of us to go...but not this soon. At least graduate from school. I guess not. And Katherine is off doing something similar to me. I could actually see us going to grad school or something at the same place. Not together or anything, but the same place. How uncool would that be. Anyways. Where was I going with this. It also just makes me wonder where I am with this whole boy thing. When I got to college not ever having a boyfriend was a deal but not that big of a deal but now, I'm 21 and haven't even had anything close to one. What does that say about me? Do I smell? Honestly. Do a lot of people go through this when someone close to them tells them they're engaged? It gets me thinking about her, and why we aren't close, why she didn't tell me (I thought we were close..and this happened almost two months ago...and I've facebooked and friended on myspace katherine and Jess..why didn't they tell me?), and ugh. I know I'm super stressed out right now. I need a good cry. I really do. But it will have to wait until after this weekend. Too much to do. Too much to do.